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R.I.P. Wilbur

Mon Oct 5, 2009, 1:34 AM
  • Mood: Unhappy
My rat Wilbur, one of the best rats I've ever known, passed away on Saturday. He would have been two years old around late November or early December. The average lifespan of a rat is supposed to be 1,000 days, or 2.7 years. He declined into old age rapidly over the past few weeks and became sick. I don't know what it was. He sounded congested all the time and toward the end had slow, labored breathing.

I wrapped Wilbur's body in a scrap of fancy purple fabric left over from an old costume and buried him out in the yard beside his brother Zeke under the rosebushes. Then I set a large rock on top to mark the grave, along with some flowers from my yard. If anyone thinks that's silly, then you obviously don't understand love. People who just throw their pets' bodies in the trash make me sick. If you have ANY respect or feelings for that creature whatsoever, you would give it a decent burial or cremation. After all, do you want YOUR remains chucked in a landfill?

Wilbur was one of the best rats I've ever known, but for some reason I haven't cried at all. Not even when I had to dig the grave with a spoon because I have no shovel and had to bury an animal myself for the first time. I've been indifferent to the whole thing. It's like, ever since Mom passed away, I just haven't been able to cry or even get really sad about losing someone. Sure, I'll cry about almost anything else that upsets me, but not death anymore. Not when Mom died, not when a good friend's husband died shortly after, and now not even when one of my favorite rats ever died.

No tears, no sadness. I'm just indifferent. It's like God answered my prayers a little too well when I asked for the strength to cope before losing Mom. Not that I really mind all that much. Who WANTS to suffer from the loss of a loved one? But I just can't shake how unnatural it is to be this way. And Wilbur was the very last rat my mom picked out. We would always get two rats of the same gender to keep each other company. I would pick one, and she would pick the other. I feel like her final choice should count for something extra, but it doesn't.

I will always love Wilbur and miss him dearly, but why do I never get sad anymore? I was a wreck when his brother Zeke died. I cry for all my rats. But not for Wilbur, one of the rats I love the most. What's wrong with me?

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  • Current Residence: California
  • Interests: drawing, painting, writing, reading, my pet rats
  • Favourite movie: Labyrinth, Short Circuit 2, Beetlejuice, Nightmare B4 Xmas, Wizard of Oz, Cars, Wall-e, Coraline
  • Favourite band or musician: Beach Boys, Beatles, Weird Al Yankovic, Enya, Madonna, 3 Doors Down, Eagles, Bryan Adams
  • Favourite genre of music: 50's-60's, soft rock, disco, new age, classical, country, etc.
  • Favourite poet or writer: John Steinbeck, Madeleine L'Engle, Edgar Allan Poe, Shel Silverstein, Sara Teasdale, Myself XP
  • Favourite cartoon character: Tow Mater, Homer Simpson, Philip J. Fry, Foxxy Love, Edward Elric, Sheen Estevez
  • Personal Quote: "Who says there's no rat church?" ~ me (half asleep)

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:iconpixarcarslover51vs95:
hey do u do art request?im just wondering cuz if u do i have a idea...
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Happy Halloween! I hope you're doing well and enjoying the holiday.
:iconnevuela:
I did! I dressed up in my witch costume, passed out candy to some kids (for a trailer park, there sure were a lot of them!) and I even dared to go trick-or-treating down the street (outside the park, where no one knows me). A 28-year-old trick-or-treating?! Yes! Well, just 2 houses. Not much down that particular street. I was so bored. XP

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Haha, that's just awesome. It's good to hear you had a fair amount of kids. There was a marked decrease in trick-or-treaters this year. Why kids would turn down free candy is beyond me.
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If you could put a link somewhere under your work so more people can see it, I would be greatful ^^


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